Today is a new day

Life has been pretty crazy forms these last few days, months..hell its been upside down for years. I’ve decided it’s time to get back into the swing of things. Time to adult. Sure, I’ve lost some good friends recently but I honestly don’t think that they’d want me to be living like this. All mopey, woe is me and depressed. I think they’d want me to get out there, grab the bull by the balls, wait, that’s not right is it? I just have the yearning to grab something by the balls I think haha. Anyways, I think it’s time to move along . 

Today is the first day of the rest of my life. Time to get this company off the ground. Find a good work environment and live. Not just exist. First sleep. Note to self, don’t drink so much coffee after 6, I’ll be wide awake at 3 am. However, I do like this time of night, morning whatever. It’s quiet, no expectations, no stress of worrying about actions and words of other people.just me, the sound of the house settling and my dark thoughts.  I’ll just leave this here for now…it reflects my thoughts exactly.